i was reminded of u and all our memories that i thought i'd nvr relive again when i saw ur photos on my news feed. although i was over this whole thing for years alr, i still rmb what it felt like in the past. u were who i looked forward to seeing most every mon wed fri or even saturdays. i could still rmb some parts in those 2 months exactly. how u turned to look at me, smiling, panting, and how i felt something light up in me. how we pretended that it was part of the 'fight' that we had to get so close to each other. it was purely, innocent joy without burdens or responsibility. Then we both blogged often, having those hidden words between the spaces of the lines. it was like we knew those messages were directed to each other, and i refreshed ur page a few times a day, hoping to see a new entry with those hidden words in reply to mine: those words which were maybe too hurtful to say. i nvr got to know when those messages stopped being replies to mine, but someone else's.

i dont think u'll see this entry though. but if u do, and u feel that im referring to u, yes it is. there's no one else. but dont get me wrong. im not feeling all emotional, just slightly regretful that what should have become of us didnt happen. we would have felt so blessed. maybe not u, but definitely me. im sorry it didnt happen.

i dont rmb if i gave one of it to u, but even if i did, i bet u had it thrown away long ago. im still keeping urs though. its not like i miss u so badly or want to go back to the past. i just cant bear to throw our memories away. i'd like them to stay where it is.