stresseddddddd

I feel so demoralized. I couldnt do a single question in N2010 P2 Q2, i didnt had a clue, i dont even know how to start. I gave up and went back to sch earlier ytd to copy out all the reactions in organic chem. I did that ytd, less than 24 hours ago, and now even when im viewing the answers on the forum i still dont understand a single shit. I dont rmb what i did ytd. I cant rmb any chemical equations. Chem is super hard i dont want to do this anymore. Its making me all stressed out and i havent started revision on physics math econs and basically EVERYTHING else. It sucks that i have to study twice as hard as everyone else because im stupid. And im not even half their standard. I could do it for O lvls, why not now? I dont rmb studying this hard for O's, i was just slacking around and telling everyone to loosen up because i didnt think it was hard. I scored good grades even though i was one of the few who did the least past year papers. I thought some of them didnt do as well because they over-studied. Maybe that's exactly what is happening to me now. Maybe i study too much thats why. A part of me thinks this way, but a larger part is telling me, dont be stupid.

Life's not that easy anymore.