1st one after a long while

ok hi everybody! i have decided to blog again but i havent told anyone yet because im still deciding if i should. i want to blog about anything here or bitch about annoying ppl sometimes, and just in case i blog about something gossip-worthy and everything starts to spread like the bobcullen thingy, i should keep this url private to me. and maybe my stalkers if i have any hahahaha. plus i'll just get judged even more and by the ppl i dont even know if i put my url public. hate to admit but im scared of ppl judging me, thats why i wish to just hide in my own corner and be a small fry in my entire jc life.

idk how long i can keep this up. i dont really have time to blog about random stuff and usually when i find the need to rant i turn to my private blog. i shall try blogging here on a regular basis though. idk where this sudden interest came from!

so i;ve been a really happy girl for the entire week until 2 days ago when i accidentally scratched off my scab and there was this cavity and it reminded me of the holey pictures i saw AND YES I AM VERY VERY TRYPOPHOBIC, to the extent i had to throw my food away because it made me lose my appetite. If there's a scar i will get a tattoo to cover it or i'll nvr wear collarless shirt ever again. Aside from that, this week's been good: i downloaded new covers, printed my jacket, got a new ringtone and played pokemon on my bro's gameboy. Some times these small things can make me unusually happy, but at other times nothing seems to be able to satisfy me. not even the moon..... but maybe mooncakes. HAHAHHA ok just expressing my love for food sigh how can i ever lose weight like this ):

ok i hadnt expected such a long post either hahaha ok bye good night~