going back to cch

studied for a while after sch before going back cch to ball. im so happy cause i got to meet mariana and rae's batch and caught up with them! balling was fun, but then on the individual lvl i was actually quite disappointed. idk if its because i cant play seriously or if i just suck. probably the latter. im playing against C div and this is my standard. i feel scared even playing against them. i cant do my moves properly or get rebounds. sigh this is not working out idk whats wrong with me seaons coming really soon in 2 weeks time and im still screwing up. how are we gna win? everyone's expecting me to contribute to the scores but i dont think i can. what if i dont even score? its possible, its not like it has nvr happened before. 0 points when im main 5. yes it happened. i cant find the root of the problem, then how am i gna solve it????

friendly against seniors/ahs tmr i am really not prepared for it. i think i really have to go back to cch on monday again to play ball with the juniors and hopefully see some improvements.