i have no where i'll have time

so little time. so many things to do. so many topics to cover. so many practices to complete. Its day 4 in my intensive study week but so far there isnt a day where it went like i planned. i go home for dinner every night because mum's cooking and i want to accompany them more since my bro is in NS, but i dont even study after i reach home. Like now, im blogging instead of study.

my mind is saturated with all that econs shit. i didnt realize how heavy the content is. and i didn't know chem had such long chapters and i confidently thought i could finish it in 2 days. yup, i spent 2 days on market structure and ionic equilibrium 1 only. i tried to force intro to macro into my brain when it was close to 7pm and on the bus back home but its so painful to even read econs, much less memorize. I have so so so many more chapters to complete in 3 days, and i even thought maybe i could afford 2 hours to travel to ahs to catch the finals.

i am so sick of it. i hate econs. mainly because my reading speed is so slow i take thrice as long as others to finish reading the same set of notes. its too time consuming. i need someone to teach me how to speed read. it doesnt seem to get into my brain whenever i try to do that.

i cant do this i cant focus i want to run 10km and let fatigue take over and forget about all these for a while