ct2 results

i cant even say how disappointed i am with my ct2 results. 3 out of 5 subjects slipped. and i got my first U in my jc life. how demoralising, especially when im just 4 months away from A's. i've studied the entire holiday, i swear i really did study, but i just cant do it. i just cant score well. i dont know why im struggling so hard when i could just breeze through PSLE and O's. i work 10x as hard as before but still find myself failing my subjects.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!??

by hook or by crook im going to do well for A's, im going to get at least 3 distinctions and get into the only course i want in local uni: business. its not easy. but i know that if i screw up A's and cant get into a uni, i would be worse off than a poly student. and i have no money to go overseas to study(which i dont want either), or to go SIM. i NEED to do well.

if 10x of hard work isnt enough, im going for 20x. whatever it takes i have to make it