private or public

this is a public blog, but im treating it more and more like my private one. no one even reads it anw so i guess its safe. i post some personal stuff here with a little hope that maybe someone would read it and understand my plight. yet i dont want the entire world to know by posting my blog url online. so ya, those that truly want to know about my life might check out this space some time, and chance upon new posts in this supposedly dead blog. of course the really personal stuff are still kept safe in my private blog hahahah. ok, disclaimer done.

so............... i forgot what was the purpose of this post HAHAHAHHA WTH it has only been 3 mins.

i think i was gna type some wise quote or stuff, but anw, in short, what was going through my mind a moment ago was probably about the usual stuff:

how i wish things could go smoothly and fit in perfectly like in dramas or as i planned.

and if things were just this easy and attainable.

everything comes with a price, i havent truly understood the meaning of this because i havent lost something significant due to a gain of something so far (i think). but if i prioritize this issue over almost everything else, the price i have to pay will be lesser, and my decision will be worth it, right? ok even if the decision's settled, it doesnt mean things will necessarily go according plan.



its ok if u didnt understand the above paragraph, i was just spilling out all my thoughts. before i forget what i was gna say again.






sighhhhhhh its been so long