split roads

im not someone sociable. no amount of words can fully describe how terrible i am at making new friends. i suck at it, i suck at socializing, i suck at being friendly, i suck at starting conversations or even keeping a convo alive. i dont know where i should be heading: NTU or NUS. both has its pros and cons, and i cant choose which is better overall.

NTU: i have most of my closer friends there, in the same course/sch, which means we could book lectures tgt and hang out. But its freaking 2+ hr from my house which means that i have to spend 5 hrs travelling EVERY SINGLE DAMN WEEKDAY since i cant stay in the hostel. But then again its 1 year shorter compared to NUS to graduation. so that makes up for the travelling time perhaps....... but provided i can even survive those 3 years.

NUS: slightly nearer, slightly more recognised (which doesnt really matter to me). I have friends there, but not in the same course as me. As for friends studying in NUS biz... i only found 2, plus we're not that close (then again how many close friends do i even have ha). Have applied for financial aid and done all the necessary stuff there alr, would be a waste if i dont go in the end. But honestly im really afraid i cant meet new friends.I dont know who will go to sch with me on the first day, who i can book the same lectures with, who i can find to do projects and who i can eat lunch with. Its too hard, especially since i'll probably be missing orientation camp. ARE THERE ANY OTHER LONERS OUT THERE? Please look out for me because i feel like i dont belong.

Where......? Where should i go?