i've already initiated to talk first. twice. even when im still having this wtf-happened thought in my head. my question has yet been answered, my frustration still the same, so quit playing hard to get when i've already put aside my anger/pride despite the unjust i feel. i dont even know why im doing this when u cant be bothered/dont feel a thing. it feels like, when i give in first u just take it for granted and expect more from me? or do u not understand this frustration because i've never done this to u?

tell me how to move on when u're unwilling to talk about the issue? oh why dont YOU try to do something now. let us resume our happy couple life and end this fight using ur way. unless u want to have a cold war forever? i dont know what to do if u dont open up

i never know what u're thinking when we fight. not during, not after. u have this blog to rely on if u do read, i have nothing. and i dont think that's helping. truth to be told after so long i dont actually know u, not much about ur life, not much about ur thoughts. im familiar with ur physical traits, not with u.

// whats so hard about saying "i dont want to talk about it now"? how am i supposed to know what silence means - continue to beg me cause im playing hard to get, or i might say if u pester me harder, or dont do anything cause i dont want to talk about it? i dont have much patience for the first two because im being penalised for something that i dont even know what? like if i knew what the issue was i could explain or at the very least understand u, but this is just... only u know u have a reason to be upset. i dont and i'll find it ridiculous. IT NEVER WORKS