with the pain comes some form of comfort and familarity

that’s why i find myself going through the painful event when it comes to mind, in detail, over and over again

i try to be emotionless. i try to treat things/people like they dont matter.
because i become very vulnerable when i put things close to my heart
i’ve experienced it with u, friends, and work.

and once something hurts me it will stay for a long time. i will let it stay for a long time.

it’s not hard to forgive, but hard to forget.

it’s not good -

behaving like i dont care about something when i do (unconsciously reacting this way)

thinking about unhappy things, getting caught in the loop and crying over it

but it has already become a habit